California sky looked endless, and those iconic palm trees, I'm trying to put this feelings in words. I’m out here in the desert for my first Coachella, but I actually used to live in California back when I was a student. Returning now as an adult, the vibe feels so different. There’s a certain heaviness to the city that I didn't notice before. Seeing parts of it looking a bit run-down and worn out makes me feel a strange kind of sadness. It’s like looking at an old photo and realizing how much time has actually passed. But at the same time, the classic California energy is still here, that… Lue lisää

That day, the sky over Bangkok felt unusually high and clear. From where I was, I could see far across the city, layers of buildings, highways, river, and distant movements like I was somewhere outside of everyday life. People and cars, and many motorbikes were moving constantly below, but from above, it all felt slightly unreal. I recently watched the Congress and that's why I think about it. It's a film where reality and digital existence blur big time, where people can choose to escape into utopia versions of the world and themselves. It’s not exactly our present, but it doesn’t feel far… Lue lisää

Lately I’ve been feeling these tiny, almost invisible shifts inside me. Maybe it’s because of the new people in my life or the different places I found myself in this year. Or maybe it started when I released my porn videos, with that strange mix of pride, exposure, and suddenly seeing random images of myself floating around the internet. I had already been living in the OF world for a while, showing little pieces of myself and talking to the same familiar names every day. But even with that, something shifted. It wasn’t me changing. It was the way my fans looked at me. They were always kind… Lue lisää